Transitions aren't always easy...
Monday was the first day of my “new life.” I closed the chapter on my full-time position the Friday before and I was ready to jump into my new career. I bought my new computer, decorated my home office (pictures coming), and my small business became official (at least with the state), I’m now the proud owner of Jenna Allerson Consulting, LLC. I had checked off all the boxes to get me to this Monday, but now what?
I sat down at my computer and started to feel overwhelmed and started second guessing my decision. What am I doing? Did I really just do this? Do I have a plan? My plan for that day consisted of talking to my new boss, and honestly I didn’t know what was going to come after that…and that scared me. Usually my days were planned out weeks in advanced with six meetings on my calendar each day. But, not that Monday. No one was going to be looking for me, or waiting on me for anything. It was freeing and terrifying all at the same time.
As I continued to sit and stew I looked to my calendar. Here’s what it said:
THE REAL LIFE I NOW HAVE WITHIN THIS BODY IS A RESULT OF MY TRUSTING IN THE SON OF GOD, WHO LOVED ME AND GAVE HIMSELF FOR ME.
– GALATIANS 2:20
Wow, if that wasn’t a sign I don’t know what would be. When I was faced with the decision a couple of weeks back on what to do, I knew which way God was taking me. I knew He wanted me to make this change. You know how I knew that? I felt peace. Yes, peace. The peace that can’t be explained that’s how I knew it was Him. I trusted Him then when I made that decision and I’m going to continue to trust Him now.
He knew that I needed that reminder on Monday. He knew it way before I did, because a month ago I didn’t have any idea that on Monday, June 18 I would be sitting down at my computer in my home office starting my new adventure. I’m coming to the end of my first week and I’m still feeling a bit unsettled. I’ve been working twelve years full-time with a clear goal and destination in mind. I don’t have that now.
This is what I know now, I’m trying to live with more intention. The intention of spending more quality time with my family and spreading hope and inspiration in as many forms as I can. Well, that looks a lot different than my “to-do” list of six meetings and a presentation that has to be prepped.
Right now, I guess I need to embrace the ambiguity (something not easy for a Type A person), but over the week every time I have struggled I went back to Him and His words.
THE REAL LIFE I NOW HAVE WITHIN THIS BODY IS A RESULT OF MY TRUSTING IN THE SON OF GOD, WHO LOVED ME AND GAVE HIMSELF FOR ME.
– GALATIANS 2:20
I felt the peace again. I’m going to hold onto that as I hold onto this crazy ride. I humbly ask for all of your prayers as I continue through this journey. Friends, if you’re out there at a crossroads and you’re wondering what to do, I urge you to pray about it. Pray about it and be still. Where do you feel the peace? I share my struggles with you here today, because I want to be 100 percent transparent that even when it’s God’s way there’s still going to be doubt and questions. It’s not going to be perfect all the time, but remember God works all things for our good.
Blessings to you and your family,
Jenna